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This is My LaSt DaY oF wOrK, and thus my last blog. It's been a good time.


PEACE, SUCKAS!!!!

I HAVE A DORM!!!

Yay! I'm in Stearns!!! Look how pretty!!!!





YAYAYAYAYAYAY

COLLEGE COLLEGE COLLEGE COLLEGE COLLEGE

So apparently, I just don't want to research things today for the blog. SO, I'm going to write about COLLEGE, and my dorm sitch. Yes, sitch.

So, I had been put in a dorm called Stewart (wtf? Is he following me everywhere?) with a core class that I uber did not want (Russian Literature crap), and then the housing department called me and said, "hey, we can put you in Newcomb with air conditioning, but there are none of the core classes that you want"...so I said, "Heyl no, keep me in Stewart". So then the lady calls me back and tells me the core class (previously mentioned russian literature crap--I didn't know the class before), and I'm upset, because I neither want to be in the creepy ex-boyfriend dorm or a class with people who I won't have anything in common with. So my mother (yes, my MOM) talks to the head of the department, and he explains the whole deal. So NOW I can be in one of these three dorms.

Stewart- PRO: Newly rennovated, in high demand. CON: No air conditioning, named after an uber creepy ex-boyfriend, a class that I have no interest in, will have people that I might not have much in common with (econ, politics, english--obviously I'd like the english geeks tho), farthest away from stuff.

Stearns- PRO: Closest to the student center (food) and the theatre, I'd be in a class I really want to be in, architecture is cool. CON: No air conditioning, the roommate is the least best match out of the three (has that ever stopped me? Should I be worried about that?)

Braun- PRO: Air conditioning, I'd be in a class that I kind of want to be in. CON: oldest and the least "fresh"

I think that's the whole Pro/Con list. Anyway, I'm excited. I think I want to be in Stearns. No, I DO want to be in Stearns. Excited excited excited excited. Now if that one spot in the class in Stearns is open, then I'm in. YAYAYAYAYAYAY COLLEGE!!!!!!

Carrie

DAYS OF WORK LEFT: 4

So, Chad told me that I should write about acrobatics today, and maybe I still will, but at the moment I just don't feel like it. So here's what I'm writing about instead:

Carrie.

K. Carrie is absolutely fantastic. I mean, there's just nothing else to say. She's amazing. She's like this little bundle of love that is practically a carbon copy of me, and uses phrases in every day life like, "PS" and "For the record" and "PS I love the record book". Etc. etc. You just can't even describe Carrie because what makes her so fantastic is the essence. Yes, the ESSENCE. Carrie essence is like everything you could imagine that you love. Like, cookies, and ice cream, and steak, and pretty flowers, and puppys, and action movies, and love (not necessarily all together). There's just absolutely no way to describe her. She's fantastic. And fun as hell to hang out with. She's going to BU in the fall, but we're gonna try and see each other. Hopefully that'll work out, but we'll see. Love the Carebear.

FattyMcFrowny

COUNTDOWN TO LAST DAY OF WORK: 5

Yes!

So, I started this stupid diet again. This is actually something personal, and something I'm trying to sort through, so talking about it might help.

I eat. A lot. And yeah, it's all well and good when people joke about it--because the jokes remind me that if I actually were fat, they wouldn't be joking about it. ....But recently, the jokes have stopped. That I don't like as much.

I find some sort of sick satisfaction in knowing people think I'm attractive. I don't know why I feel that need, because I am completely happy with myself as a person and could really give a shit what people think. I mean, at least I've always that I could give a shit about what people think. But maybe, maybe it's just not true. Maybe I'm totally full of crap and pretend that I am what I say I am when I'm really just this faded reflection of what I want to be. I don't like that. The fact that I don't know enough about myself to know whether or not I am who I say I am scares me. And yes, this all sounds extremely convoluted when put into words, but it's actually what I think. This flip-flop thinking is what comprises the majority of my thought process: I can contradict everything I think with something else, so that in the end, I am completely neutral, and have not moved anywhere except to a place where I have spent a lot of wasted time dwelling on something that's not going to be important in the end anyway. ...so I wish I knew more about myself, and more about the world. It's frustrating. I know absolutely nothing.

....so I totally got off track with what I actually wanted to say..... I eat a lot. And I eat simply because it makes me happy. I mean, it's seriously like a drug to me. I'm addicted to food (a good thing as it keeps you ALIVE, but I take it further); It's just something to do. When I'm bored, I eat. When I'm hungry, I eat. When I'm sad, I eat. When I'm happy, I EAT. There are just so few things that someone with my kind of lifestyle can do with pleasure but eat. But is boredom then to what this relates back? Do I eat because I'm bored with my life? Possibly, but I think it actually stems from this natural insecurity that is hidden really deep somewhere inside me. I've learned to live with a mask to the world, that says that I'm outgoing, and secure, and I don't give a shit about other's opinions, but when it really comes down to it, I have absolutely no security and am basically completely helpless. I can't do anything myself. ANYTHING. I need constant approval from those who I love, and constant advice, and constant handholding, and everything. I just cannot do anything by myself. So I eat because it fills this void that exists when others aren't there, and somehow I think that it will give me all of these answers when there aren't people there to do that for me (I've never thought about this before, but I realize as I say it that it's all true).
But what's weird about all of this is that I know I'm totally stubborn as well, and refuse to get help when I actually need it...my willpower is intensely strong and steadfast to the point of being annoying. If I want something really badly, I will not stop until I get it. So then why am I so insecure deep down? It doesn't make sense. And furthermore, because I'm so insecure inside and with such a hard exterior, I run the risk of really hurting myself and thinking that it's okay because I believe I would get help if I actually needed it. But I don't know if that's true. If I were really sick, I probably wouldn't ask for help, because I would have talked myself into the fact that I could handle it by myself. So when is it okay to ask for help, and when is it not? All I ever do is ask questions, because I thought that no questions were ever stupid--but at this point, the extent of mine must be.

So I'm starting this diet again to prove to myself that I can do it, and to be happy with my body for me. And, you know, if people think I'm more attractive then, then our society just proves itself again to be amazingly shallow and I prove myself to be a product of it. I miss cookies already.


...Man, I'm going to regret this post....

TOYS!!!!!!!

So, I wasn't kidding when I said I was going to write about Care Bears. However, I'm going to combine it with toys from my childhood....

CARE BEARS
www.care-bears.com

	Cheer Bear You're the Care Bear cheerleader! Your spunky personality and optimisim lifts everyone's spirit. Though you want everyone to be happy, you stand your ground on issues you feel strongly about and this can bring disunity among your friends. Despite this, you are a true believer in working together.
Take the Which Care Bear Are You? Quiz!

I should have known. Stupid Cheerfulness.

HISTORY:
Toys—Care Bears became "America's Teddy Bear" with over 40 Million Care Bears toys sold between 1983 and 1987 alone.
Movies—The Care Bears Movie was a huge box office hit. Three successful sequels followed it.
Television—The Care Bears starred for two seasons on an ABC television network series. They also starred in their own syndicated series and two specials.
Publishing—Care Bears appeared in children's books, comic books, coloring and activity books. Over 45 million books were published.
Audio—Care Bears collections of children's songs were best-sellers in their category.
Greeting Cards—American Greetings sold over 70 million Care Bears cards in the 80s.

ABOUT THE BEARS:
Laugh-a-Lot Bear- There's always something funny going on wherever Laugh-a-lot Bear is. This silly bear gets everything mixed up but turns her little misfortunes and mistakes into lots of laughter for others. Her symbol shows what she really is—a star at giving others the giggles. Color: Orange. Best friend: Love-a-Lot Bear.
Champ Bear- hamp Care Bear is a real sports star. He's great at every sport, but he's even better at sharing the real prizes of sports-fun, fitness, friendship and learning to be your best. He even shows this with his symbol—a golden trophy with star.
Color: Blue. Best friend: Good Luck Bear.
Bedtime Bear- Bedtime Bear stays up nights. He's the special bear who helps people get a good night's sleep and makes sure that they have sweet dreams. There's no better bear buddy for a goodnight hug. Bedtime has a symbol that says what he's all about—a sleepy-faced moon. Color: Blue. Best friend: Wish Bear.
Cheer Bear- Cheer Bear is a very happy Care Bear who helps others see the bright side of life. She will sometimes even do a cheer to help make someone happier. Wherever she goes, Cheer Bear wears a symbol of hope and happiness—a rainbow.
Color: Pink. Best friend: Wish Bear.
Friend Bear- Need a good friend? Friend Bear would love to be your best buddy bear. She's the perfect example of a friend, too. She's caring, likes to play with you and she's fun to be with. She has a friendly symbol on her tummy—two smiling flowers! Color: Peach. Best Friend: Love-a-Lot Bear.
Funshine Bear- Funshine Bear is the Care Bear's class clown. This playful bear really knows how to be funny and to have fun. Funshine Bear works hard to make sure that people have a good time. "Enjoy each day" is Funshine's motto and it's shown on the bear's symbol—a smiling sun! Color: Yellow. Best friend: Grumpy Bear.
Good Luck Bear- Good Luck Bear is loaded with luck and he loves to share it with anyone who can use a little more good fortune. You'll almost always find this bear with a big smile on his face. Even the symbol on his tummy is lucky—a four-leaf clover! Color: Green. Best friend: Funshine Bear.
Grumpy Bear- Grumpy Bear frowns a lot—that's his way to show us how silly we look when we frown too much. He also shows that it's okay to be grumpy sometimes. But even when we're grumpy, we're still loved, and we're reminded of that by Grumpy Bear's symbol—a rain cloud with heart-shaped raindrops. Color: Blue. Best friend: Funshine Bear.
Love-a-lot Bear- Love-a-lot Bear believes in the power of love, but is not afraid to help it along. She's a pretty and perky bear who loves everything about love and tries to make it grow wherever she goes. Love-a-lot Bear loves her tummy symbol too—two hearts! Color: Pink. Best friend: Friend Bear
Share Bear- Nobody knows how to share like Share Bear. She is a friendly bear who knows how much fun it is to give some of her good things to others. She thinks that sharing is such a treat, that she shows it with her symbol—two heart-shaped lollipops! Color: Lavender. Best friend: Tenderheart Bear.
Tenderheart Bear- Tenderheart is a loving and lovable bear who knows lots about helping others share their feelings. By helping people show they care, Tenderheart Bear helps spread love and make it grow. He wears the perfect symbol for his job on his tummy—a heart. Color: Brown. Best friend: Grumpy Bear.
Wish Bear- Do you have a wish? Then Wish Bear is the bear you should wish for. She knows that sometimes wishes come true, and that even when they don't, making wishes can be a lot of fun. She shows this with her tummy symbol—a smiling wishing star. Color: Aqua. Best friend: Cheer Bear.
Do-Your-Best Bear- Do-Your-Best Bear is a Care Bear who dreams big and never gives up. Like his name says, he helps others put their best into everything they do. He's an upbeat bear who's always ready to say, "Great job!" His "aim high" attitude shows in his tummy symbol—a beautiful kite. Color: Light Green. Best friend: Champ Bear.
Harmony Bear- Harmony Bear helps others get along. This peace-loving bear knows our differences are something to be celebrated, not something to keep us apart. When differences are brought together in harmony they create something beautiful. That's the meaning of her symbol—a smiling flower with different colored petals. Color: Lavender. Best friend: Friend Bear.

There are also a buttload of Care Bear friends...they're all animals like Braveheart Lion, and there's a penguin, and a bunny, etc. I can't find information on them. Meh.

POPPLES



The Popples was a 30-minute cartoon based on a series of toys created by American Greeting Cards & Mattel. The show aired from 1985-1987. These fuzzy, magical creatures could pull anything out of the pouches on their backs from a hammer to an elephant. They also flipped into their pouches to become balls of fur to bounce around or hide. The name "Popples" came from the popping sound they made when they sprang back out of a ball to normal.

The Popples only revealed themselves to two children, Bonnie and Billy, whose attic they lived in, and later to their neighbors who wound up living with the Baby and Punk Rocker Popples. At the beginning, all the Popples names started with "P", including the original 9 Popples, Punk Rocker Popples, and the Pufflings. However, the Baby Popples and the Sports Popples do not have names that begin with "P". Popples repeat the "p" sound for words beginning in "P". For instance, Party will say, "P-p-popples love to p-p-party!"

The basic plot of every episode was that the Popples follow Bonnie and Billy somewhere against the childrens' wishes, make a HUGE mess right when an adult walks away, and they must clean up their mess before the adult returns. Many times, the Popples will ask the audience to lend them a hand too.

One of the amazing things about the Popples is that there are no evil villians in the show and it still held an audience.

Characters: P.C. Popple, Party Popple, Pancake Popple, Prize Popple, Puzzle Popple, Puffball Popple, Putter Popple, Potato Chip Popple, Pretty Bit Popple (Those are the original nine. There are a bunch more called the Punkster Popples...but they're just not as neat.)

POLLY POCKET

Polly pocket was this fantastic toy when I was little that was in the shape of a circle, or a heart, or a shell or something, and when you opened them, there would be these teeny little parts. There'd be Polly, and like a dog or some kind of animal, etc. Now when you look up Polly Pocket it comes up with this weird cartoon character. It just sucks now.

MY LITTLEST PET SHOP

Oh my God, Amie and I used to play with these all the time when we were in 2nd grade. It was amazing. The Littlest Pet Shop was a popular toy series in the 80's and early 90's.  I believe it is owned by Hasbro.  It features miniature animals and their homes, as well as many accessories.  These accessories include: blankets, saddles, food and water bowls/containers, bales of hay, trophies, and much much more.

MY LITTLE PONIES

I think My Little Ponies may have been my favorite toy growing up. Maybe that's not true, I just can't remember. But I do know that I like them a LOT now. I mean, what a brilliant idea. They're just fantastic, that's all there is to say. However, they did make these stupid really skinny ponies for awhile, but they were just not as cool. The fat ones are, hands down, the originals, and just plain fantastic. The way you can recognize them is by the symbol on their flank. Yes, flank.



these were the set of rainbow ponies made in 1983. They're my favorites.

BEANIE BABIES

K. Who doesn't remember these? For awhile, I had almost every one, and I should have sold them when they were worth thousands of dollars a piece. But nooooooooo, my pack-rat mother wouldn't let me. Damnit. I could have so much money from those god damn things!!! Anyway, the way they work is that they're put out to be sold, and that's when they're called 'current'. When the TY company stops making them, they become 'retired'. As simple as that. The retired ones were always the ones worth thousands of dollars. I'm so bitter. Now they make stupid children, and big beanie babies called Beanie Buddies, and a bunch of other crap. Stupid TY company. We wasted hundreds and hundreds of dollars on those god damn things.

Dinosaurs

AMERICAN GIRL DOLLS

I grew up on these things. It was a huge deal to have one, because there were all of these sets that you could buy. I still think this to be one of the most ingenious children's creations ever made, because not only could you continue to have fun with them by buying the new stuff, they taught you about girl's lives in different points of history or culture. They were awesome.

Here are the girls:

Molly: Molly McIntire® is a lively, lovable schemer and dreamer growing up in 1944. The world is at war, and she misses her father who is overseas caring for wounded soldiers. Molly® doesn’t like many of the changes the war has brought, like rationing rubber, eating turnips for dinner, and not seeing Dad on Christmas. But she learns the importance of getting along and pulling together—just as her country must do to win the war!
Kirsten: Kirsten Larson® is a pioneer girl of strength and spirit growing up in Minnesota in 1854. After a long, dangerous voyage with her family from Sweden to America, Kirsten® finds it difficult to get used to a new country and a new way of life. But as she makes friends and discovers what her new land has to offer, she learns the true meaning of home—and that love is the same in any language.
Samantha: Samantha Parkington® is a bright, compassionate girl living with her wealthy grandmother in 1904. It’s an exciting time of change in America, and Samantha’s world is filled with frills and finery, parties and play. But Samantha™ sees that times are not good for everybody. That’s why she tries to make a difference in the life of her friend Nellie, a servant girl whose life is nothing like Samantha’s!
Felicity: Felicity Merriman® is a spunky, spritely girl growing up in Virginia in 1774, just before the Revolutionary War. Felicity® grows impatient doing the "sitting-down kinds of things" that colonial girls are expected to do. She much prefers to be outdoors, especially riding horses! Felicity learns about loyalty and responsibility—to her family, her friends, and her country—and what it means to be truly independent.
Addy: Addy Walker® is a strong, courageous girl who escapes from slavery with her mother in 1864. Together they embark on a dangerous journey to the North, hoping one day to reunite their family. Addy® learns to read and write, makes new friends, and discovers what being free really means. Throughout it all, she holds on to her love and hope to get her through the worst of times and keep her dreams alive.

....those were the ones that were going when I was into American girl dolls, but there's also Kaya, Nellie, Josefina, and Kit now. Stupid time. It ruins everything. The company also started to get into other weird stuff, called Bitty Babies, and you could order a girl that was made to look like you (weeeeeeird), etc. etc.

RAINBOW BRITE



Rainbow Brite used to be known as Wisp. She was brought to a world of grey in order to restore color and cheerfulness to the land. She has a rainbow belt and rainbow crystals that are used to spread color throughout the land.

Her friends are the Color Kids. They are: Shy Violet, Red Butler, Patty O'Green, La La Orange, Indigo, Canary Yellow, and Buddy Blue. Rainbow Brite and the Color Kids each have a friend that's a Sprite that they get to play with. They are: Twink Sprite, IQ Sprite (belongs to Shy Violet), Lucky Sprite (Patty O'Green), Romeo Sprite (Red Butler), OJ Sprite (La La Orange), Spark Sprite (Canary Yellow), Hammy Sprite (Indigo), and Champ Sprite (Buddy Blue).

There's also
Strawberry Shortcake and Smurfs, but I just don't feel like writing about them.

And this site is just fucking funny:
http://www.rockpapersaddam.com/index.html

Boobs and Cheese...

This title implies that I will be discussing boobs and cheese. Which is true. Except for the boobs.

So there's actually a lot history behind cheese, like it was thought to have begun in the Middle East 6000 years ago, and carried around in animal skins. The legend is that when it was carried around in young animal skins on horseback, the jolting and jumping of the horse, as well as the coagulating enzyme called rennin, the milk separated and curdled to produce cheese. The Jews made cheese, the Romans made cheese, and when the Roman empire fell, cheese-making oozed all over Europe and became a big thing. But as with a lot of things, no one really knows for sure.

Here are some rough dates for when some cheeses was created.

Gorgonzola 879 c.e.
Roquefort 1080 c.e.
Grana 1200 c.e.
Cheddar 1500 c.e.
Parmesan 1579 c.e.
Gouda 1697 c.e.
Gloucester 1697 c.e.
Stilton 1785 c.e.
Camembert 1791 c.e.

And some types of cheese:
ddar can have a diverse selection of tastes that range from mild to sharp. This is dependent upon the age of the cheese. Mild Cheddar is perfect for sandwiches because it has a mellow balance of flavors. Sharp Cheddar is great for cooking because its flavor is released when heated and it shreds well. This cheese tastes best when it reaches room temperature before eating and also blends very well with other cheeses.



COLBY
Colby is similar to Cheddar, but it is a softer, milder cheese that contains more moisture and has a shorter curing process. Colby has a mild and slightly sweet taste, but it can also be sharp and tangy.

MOZZARELLA
Mozzarella has a mild, milky taste and is more of a cooking cheese than a cheese board cheese due to its good binding properties, moist texture, and ability to melt. It is a "stretched-cured" cheese meaning that during the manufacturing process the curd is pulled, kneaded and shaped while it is still pliable. Therefore, it absorbs the flavors and juices of the ingredients surrounding it and is perfectly designed for cooking. Mozzarella is also low in fat; therefore, it is ideal to use even when dieting.

MUENSTER
Muenster is a semi-soft, mild cheese that has an almost a sweet flavor. It usually has an orange-yellow rind with a straw-yellow color inside and is produced in a loaf shape.

SWISS
Swiss cheese, which is also known as Emmentaler or Schweizer, is a firm cheese with a sweet, mildly nutty flavor. This cheese is known for the holes that develop as it ripens. These holes or eyes range in diameter from 1/2 inch to 1 inch and begin forming when the cheese is about 3 weeks old.

MONTEREY JACK
Monterey Jack is a member of the Cheddar family and is a mild, white cheese aged only three to six weeks. The texture of Monterey Jack cheese depends on the type of milk used. If whole milk is used, the cheese will be semi-soft; if skim milk is used, it will be harder and can be used for grating.

PROVOLONE
Provolone is usually a smoked cheese, ranging in flavor from mild to sharp, with a smooth texture. The mild ones are younger and used as table cheeses. The sharp ones are older and harder; therefore, used in cooking. Traditionally, it is pear-shaped and bound by cord.

BRIE
Brie has a delicate and creamy texture and its rich, sweet taste can vary from buttery to mushroomy. This cheese has a thin, edible crust and becomes even more delicious with age, tasting best when served at room temperature. Brie was first made in France and is usually made from cow's milk. Its quality depends upon what milk (whole or skim) is used.

CAMEMBERT
Camembert has a soft texture with a buttery taste and mushroomy smell. It tastes best when it's at room temperature and the center becomes soft.

EDAM
Edam is a semi-soft to hard cheese that is similar to Gouda in its mild and buttery to nutty taste. It has a firm, crumbly texture that is free of holes. In the United States, Edam is covered with a tight red wax coating.

GOUDA
Gouda is a semi-soft to hard cured cheese that becomes spicier and more robust as it ages. It is similar to Edam in its mild and nutty to buttery taste, but Gouda is aged longer and has a richer flavor.

BLUE
There are two major types of Blue cheese: soft/white - mild, with a sweet taste of herbs and firm/hard - crusty outside with a sharp, tangy taste and smell . Blue cheese has a veined appearance within a white interior. This cheese ripens from the center to the crust. It is desirable that the veins be dispersed evenly throughout the cheese. Blue cheese continues maturing briefly after being made; therefore, when storing this cheese, any cut surfaces should be covered and a small opening should be left at the rind so the cheese is able to breathe.

FETA
Feta is a soft, sharp and salty, crumbly cheese containing small holes. Since it is ripened and stored in brine (water saturated with salt) it is called "pickled" cheese. Feta also has a low fat content.

PARMESAN
Parmesan is a hard, grainy textured cheese varying in shape and size. It's used mainly as a grating cheese on many different types of foods and is a good cooking cheese because it does not form threads as it melts. Parmesan cheese will keep for years when it's whole and will continue improving with age. In the United States, this cheese is produced primarily in Michigan and Wisconsin.

BRICK
Brick is a mild, but also pungent, sweet tasting cheese. It is a semi-soft cheese that slices well without crumbling. Brick has a reddish-brown rind and its inside is yellow-white in color with many small holes. This cheese is said to be named for its brick-like shape.

And I tried to look up Betsy's favorite kind of cheese, l'ecir de l'aubrac, but all the websites that came up were in french. Love you Betsy!!!!